Asperger Syndrome ?

Been a long time since last I written in here...

24 March 2011 - at last the very first appointment with child psychiatrist; Doctor Hajah Fauzi Binti Ismail at General Hospital, Kuala Lumpur.  The appointment was set last year... meeting her (actual) about less than an hour....that hard huh ?
Iman was having runny nose at that time.  What was the diagnose? Possibly autistic with Asperger Syndrome (AS)...Iman didn't respond to her name being called... she lined up the alphabets and toys... well she didn't do that at home (at least not lately)...I was sad (of course) that the word `autism' mentioned again after for quite some time been put off .....at least for awhile.. I just cried... hearing the word again...from a so called an expert...the doctor at least tried to calm me down...she passed me some tissues... being a psychologist she should understand the turbulence in my mind at the moment, right? Iman was heard saying out loud - ABC and then sang her favorite song- twinkle twinkle little star (that's made the doctor mentioned about AS).  It can't be real... till today I admit that I am still in denial about the syndrome...how can that be... Iman is normal and must be normal ..or is it only me...can't face the truth.
The doctor was saying - we have three years to try to help her...before she starts kindy..intervention.. more speech theraphy and occt... more days will be spent visiting GH and Serdang Hosp.  I prayed to Allah to give strength and patient to go through this all...as the doctor said - Allah parked a mercedes in your house...u should take good care of her... nothing much was said and discuss actually...just setting up another appointment to see her in 4 months time...meanwhile - occt and speech theraphy ...again... I hope we are going in the right direction... I still pray that Iman is as normal a child could be...
The truth is I am really scared of her future...school...work...life...or her life after my death so to speak...she is really so special....
As the doctor said... it's not the fault of the mother or father for that matter...