03 April 2010 - My 40th birthday
Yeah... day come and went... now I am 40 years old... old? huh... not really, not 140 yet !
Some people asked `how do you feel being 40, now?' What do you mean, `being 40 now??' I am just feeling fine, may be more grey hairs on my head now, so what? I am feeling strong, healthy and very much alive, thank you. I am used to telling people I was already 40 once I reached 30+ years and some people were surprised "Really? You didn't look 40 ?" Owww... really ? Hahaha ... How should a 40 year old looks like anyway ?? So, why should I be worrying about being 40? I am not worried at all, not a single bit !! Some said life begins at 40.... hey, wait a minute, what about all those 40 years before? are they not counted? were we not been living for the past 40 years... in fact I had been living more then 40 years actually, try count the time I spent in my mum's womb, was I not been living then? hhhmmm...life begins at 40? nonsense ! just a phrase created by people who were, sad to say, a failure for the past 40 years of their life? May be? or may be for some who couldn't face the reality of life, scared of themselves in fact, scared of looking at their own reflection in the mirror, scared of seeing wrinkles here and there... scared about their time, nearing to the end, may be?
Was I not worry about my wrinkles? Come on, there are many other important things to think about besides wrinkles. What about the time nearing to the end? Because of the time factor I should be living my life (to the fullest?); the right kind of life, not doing the things which I am not supposed to, I should be enjoying my time ( especially my time with my Iman ). I was young before, well, I might do some mistakes (who didnt?), that was before, now at forthy I won't repeat the same mistakes just to state that life begins at 40..no nonsense... I just hate it when people said it life begins at 40 (especially men !!)... just go on living, enjoy life and pray for the best, no matter how old I would be...
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I would never had enough of hugging and kissing my baby.
Waiting for lunch to be served at Secret Recipe.
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Umi eating ice cream, Iman couldn't have it because she's allergic to cow's milk. Iman didn't even want to taste it anyway. |
There... the best thing ever that I have at 40 - my baby Nur Iman Zarifah... I love you so much, Iman.
I dedicate this song In My Daughter's Eyes by Martina McBride to my dear Iman:
In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me
gives me strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes
And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about
It's hanging on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes